Hi, my name is Pauline.
I was born and raised in France until I was 18, at which point I moved to England for what was supposed to be a year out to improve my English. That was 15 years ago and I’m still there!
I grew up in a Christian family and attended the local evangelical Baptist church. When I was 11 I decided that Christianity, church and God were not for me. I could see no evidence that believing in God made the slightest bit of difference in the people around me. In my early teens, I struggled with bullying at school and a lot of stress in the midst of a very difficult home situation. My father was regularly hospitalized with severe mental crises brought on by bipolar disorder and I found this incredibly difficult. I considered suicide on a couple of occasions but lacked the guts to do anything about it.
When I was 15 I went to a Christian youth weekend which changed my life. I had no intention of becoming a Christian at this point but I was so lonely that I considered any opportunity to be away from home and with people my own age a good thing regardless of the circumstances. Completely out of the blue, I was deeply impacted by the young people at the camp and by a mind-blowing experience of the presence of God and I found myself unable to deny that he was real. I was baptised five months later.
Three years after this, I moved to England and settled in a non-denominational charismatic church. There I experienced a lot of internal healing and learned the meaning of ‘living by the Spirit’. The eight years I spent there felt very much like a training camp for life, and I met many great role models.
After a radical move to go from ‘big church’ to meeting in house churches, I gradually felt that I was somehow moving away, and I left to follow my then boyfriend to the south of England. I joined his Newfrontiers church and have been there ever since.
I am a worship leader and a bit of a geek. When I’m not running after my daughter or helping out at toddler groups, you’ll usually find me reading, whether it’s blogs or a paperback, watching sci-fi, cooking or tinkering on the keyboard.