Resources for a faith deconstruction

a curated list of authors, websites, podcasts and social media accounts I have found helpful for faith deconstruction

Accidental Saints: a book review Part 2

Accidental Saints: a book review Part 2 basically is me offloading leadership, relationships, and about corporate leadership styles, bad leaders and bad communication in the church leads to the dehumanisation of individuals. plus personal stuff

Accidental Saints: a book review Part 1

Reading a ‘proper’ Christian book for the first time since I left church a couple of years ago. It's been a weird experience so I wrote some thoughts down

I am done with evangelicalism

I am done with evangelicalism. I am done with charismatic evangelicals in particular but I am done with the lot of them and with their strand of Christianity. The death knoll resounded this morning after reading this article from the Friendly Atheist website about the 177 evangelical pastors 'slamming' Christianity Today for its editorial supporting...

Disappointed with God and the Church

One of the things I've been struggling with the most in this period of transition in my faith is the depth of my disappointment and disillusionment with God and with the Church. There are many layers to these disappointments and I have mixed feelings about writing them down. On the one hand I feel relief...

Faith Shift: a Book Review

At the start of this year, I realised that I was in a place emotionally where I might be able to start reflecting on where I was with church and life. Previously I hadn't yet had enough distance to be able to do any thinking. I was tired, disillusioned, emotionally raw and numb at the...

The in-between

I sometimes wish I could just pack it all in and just become an atheist, no belief in god or gods to muddle the waters, just me and my conscience and off we go. Close the door to all that's gone before, start a new blank page and let go of the accumulated baggage of...

Remembering a woman of valour

This weekend, with thousands of others across the world, I heard the news of Rachel Held Evans' death with shock and disbelief. Even as I write this, I can feel my throat choke up with grief, and I didn't even know her. The senselessness of her death at 37, leaving behind a young family, is...

Hype culture, Christian youth and life in the mundane

I found this old draft from a few years ago that has aged well enough to post, so I've added a few bits at the end and you can read it now in all its glory. Enjoy! Last Sunday, I didn't eat enough breakfast and ended up talking to people at the end of church...

Managing complex emotions in a world of constant change

I've published an article on my main blog about the challenge of asking for help when you are knee deep in emotions you can't name and you don't recover from trauma at the snap of a finger. You can find the article at http://www.afrogatlarge.com/trouble-get-behind-me-now/ My conclusion is that people struggle to understand complex emotions, and...